Weak.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.


All rules are fading, if you loose control!
I am just weak, don't have any discipline.


I am freezing, tired, sad, angry, hating myself.


But I have a dream and I want to reach it.
I can do it!