I just... I can't do it anymore.

I really can't do it anymore.
I want it to stop.
I've lost so many friends just through the way I am.
I think I've lost the love of my life and I'm not just saying it like that, he really IS the love of my life and I can't even think of anyone else being by my side.
I am a fat fuck and I am the most useless piece of shit.

I'm just done.