I wonder what it would be like to be breathtakingly beautiful.

I wonder what it would be like to be as light as a feather?
I wonder what it would be like to be skinny?
I wonder if I would feel different if I had another picture of perfect in my head?
I wonder why I am the way I am?
Will I ever change? Will I ever get rid of my sick thoughts?
Will I ever be able to wear normal things again?
Will I ever be able to live like all the other girls my age?