My Love.

Thank you for always being there.
Thank you for trusting me, for giving me another chance.
Thank you for telling me we can go through this.
Thank you for making future plans with me, like already looking for our future apartment.

This will be OUR time.
I love you until the end and I am so glad that we met that one day.
Our story is kind of crazy.
But now you are in my life and you will always be.

I am really looking forward to see you again really soon.
I miss you like crazy.
You are.... just the one for me. I love you.


Falling deeper and deeper.

No saving me.

Inside these broken lines - a disruption of you lives.
Insanity kicks in and all I see is another dead end.
So close your eyes and escape from what you hide.

How long will I take to bleed?
There's no saving me...
How far will you go to hold on?

I'm better off cutting my own throat,
in hope that for once you might hear me.
I know, I can at least count on the mess never judging me.
I'm breaking out from all I've come to be.

No saving me...

Alone, I've gone through hell and back to try to feel...
And there is no saving me.

It's her, just her!

Ph.C.S. ♥

The truth.


Will you come...?!

Where are you? And I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always
this sick, strange darkness comes creeping oh so haunting
every time
and as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

Yes, she's gone. And you didn't even realize.

Spinning round, spinning round until you can't see the world no more.

It's this love that keeps me alive.

Loving you the way I do,
I know we're gonna make it through
And I will go to the ends of the earth
'Cause darling, to me that's what you're worth.

Where you lead I will follow,
Anywhere that you tell me to.
If you need - You need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead.

More than my life. More than my heart. More than my soul.
You are my everything and that is a fact that can never be changed. 
It's you and me until the end.
Until the very end.


Can't go on...

Save me....


I smile a lot, so I must have the perfect life.

I cut myself, so I must be an emo.

I laugh and smile, so I cannot be depressed.

I like spending my day at home, so I don't have any friends.

I am no Tumblr and Blogspot, so I must have zero friends in real life.

I make a lot of mistakes, so I must be stupid.

I'm from a broken family, so I must be a rebel.

I have made mistakes, so I must be untrustworthy.

I make a lot of mistakes, so I must be hated.

I like to read books, so I must be a nerd.

I'm fat, so I must be lazy.

I hate my body, so I must be looking for attention.

The blood shows who you really are.

This is what I am!


I just want to give up!

Gotta be, gotta be. But NEVER will!



Scars tell stories.