My dearest follower,

I am so so so sorry for not being around here the last weeks.
I'm back in the psych ward, since 7 weeks now already and I really just have little internet here.
So to sum up:
My life's a mess and I was close to dying three times now.
But I always survived.
I am really not interested in life at the moment.
I feel lonesome, forgotten, unimportant.
And my desire to die is bigger than ever.
The doctors seem to lose their will to really fix me.
I feel so alone.
And all I want is to leave this planet.
And never come back.

I love you all and I'll try to write some more from now, as much as it's possible.