So true, but so hard to realize.

I just feel disgusting.

And I don't know why.

Maybe 'cause I am so fucking FAT!

Your body is like a costume and can be changed by force of will.

A new body would make me another person just like a costume.

A person who may someday be even good enough.

"Alice in Hungerland"

Fat.

Is it just me?
Am I the one who is actually destroying everything?
Or is the whole world turning upside down?
I don't know what to do anymore.
I just know that it can't go on like that anymore.
And I don't what it that way.
I really need to change something.
For example get away all my fat!

Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. 
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. ME. ME.  Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.
Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly. Fat. Ugly.

L.....

L.
A.
X.
A.
T.
I.
V.
E.
S.

But they don't make me feel better.
Don't know what to do anymore.
I just don't feel like myself.
I am fat, fat, fat, fat and fat.
But not strong enough.
I will never be.
'Cause I'm an awful slut, I guess.
I'm doing a lot of things but I'm always doing them wrong.
And that is what makes me such an awful person.
And that is why I hate myself so much.

And it makes me be afraid of myself.
And I know that I can't take this much longer.