We're not in wonderland anymore, Alice.

You have to wake up and live.
But how do you define living?
Is it just being yourself or is it being there for others?
Is it doing what you think might be right for you?

Living is making decisions. Unfortunately.

I love you.
More than my life.
Please don't leave me.
Keep on fighting.
I know you can do it.
I know it so badly.
And deep inside, I hope you can see it, too.... someday.

Live.

Feel.

I am so in love with Valentine and her songs.

Here is her newest one.
Black Sheep.
No words to describe. I just love it.

Another day at home.

So I am home this weekend.
Which means from 9 am to 5 pm. It's quite a lot.
But I am not sure if I really like being at home at the moment.
'Cause everything is ways harder than at the clinic.
You know, you have to deal with so much more things like your surrounding, the people you see and know and so on.
You don't have all that in the clinic. You can just concentrate on yourself.
But it's not like that when you at home.

Anyways, it's just today. And so I'll try to enjoy the day.
Maybe go for a walk with my dogs, play piano or meet my grandma.

I hope that you're not THAT angry about what happened, about me not blogging so much.
But I will try to write as much as I can.
I am really glad to have you all, my loveliest readers.


AND THERE IS ONE SPECIAL THANK YOU.
And it goes to my wonderful friend Ca.... Sch....n.
Thank you for everything. I am so glad to have you.
You were there for me, even if it was hard for you, too.
I miss you a lot and hope to see you soon.
It felt so good to talk to you yesterday.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I don't want to miss you in my life anymore.
You really became an important person for me.

Biggest sorry on earth.

Hello my loveliest readers.

I am really sorry for not posting such a long long long long time.

But there is one thing you need to know...
And I guess it will explain a lot about why I am not posting.

I got send to a psychiatry from my therapist. For recovery and getting away from my problems.
I am there now since 1 1/2 weeks. And I don't really know for how long I will stay there.
And this is the reason why I am not posting because I don't have any internet there.
But now I am home for some hours this weekend and so I seized the chance to tell you about it.

I hope you are not THAT angry and that you will hopefully remain true to my blog even if I am not blogging that much anymore.

Keep strong, stay healthy and all that.
I miss you all a lot.

In love,
Fly