Hello Mister God...

If you really exist...
You should know how I fell right now.

And If you really exist....
You would be that kind and take me away from here.
Take me to hell, where people like me belong.

If you really exist....
Please just make it happen.

Loosing myself...

I miss you like hell.

I am so sorry.

Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.

Sorry about everything.
About everything I did.
And said.
I never meant to hurt you or to make you feel bad.
I am so sorry.

Dear C....

I am not sure about what to think about you and the whole thing now.

I would really wish to make it all good again, go back to the time
where everything was okay,
where I didn't destroy everything around me and
make everyone's life so fucking hard.
I really miss you.

I wish you all the best and hope you are happy now.

But this was the last thing for me to tell you.
You've been the last person to trust.

I've made a decision inside me, with me.
Don't talk to foreign people again.
Never trust anyone cause
1. you'll hurt them
2. they will leave you after a certain time.

So trusting anyone doesn't make sense for me anymore.

I am glad that you showed me and kept me from making this mistake again.
Thank you for that.

But what it means exactly:
This world is over for me for now.
Cause what is the point in life if you just live it on your own?

Sorry for posting, but THAT is the truth!!!!!

There are so many people out there
who will tell you that you can't.
What you've got to do is turn around and say

"WATCH ME."

The Abyss.

And it feels like you're whole world is breaking together
with just ONE sentence.

Thank you for everything that you gave to me.
With what you said and with what you did to me.
Thank you that you've ALWAYS been there for me.

You helped me through the day. You helped me to survive the "hard hours".
Thank you for that time.
And now...
Now they're gone.

Game over.

Go and destroy your whole life, FAT BITCH!

Go and throw away everything you had.

Hurt all the people you really like.

Hurt them so bad that they leave you.

Hurt them as long till you're alone.

Alone and lonely. And FAT!



GO AND DIE!
That's what you deserve!
You're GAME is OVER.