I'm a weak piece of person, of meat without soul and heart.
Why can't I be strong enough to do all this here?
Was all the work for nothing?
I just want this dream, this idea, this thought to come true.
But why do I have to be so weak?
I mean it's not that hard, I have done it several times before, why doesn't it work out this time?!
I don't want to be this fat thing anymore.
I have to change, right NOW!